JOY

1) having a mum that does iron, laundry and sometimes cook for us. 2) having parents that doesn't push siblings to marry fast..instead want us not to marry so fast. =D 3) thankful to have a liberty to choose friends..and hang out with friends. as long as they are good people that has good characters. as long as I come home early enough before 12 am. being home alone with dad help me to learn that having to iron clothes everyday is not easy task. muahahaha...but I believe God has pulled me through. =D I is not that i dont iron before. I have but i seldom, most of the time i'm being pampered by my mum...she irons for all of us. having to mop floor at the same time iron on the same day is exhausting... phew....2 more weeks and mummy is coming back. Yesterday I felt the tense of not waking up. Not wanting to do anything at all...but this morning I came back to my senses...I told myself..I needed to think about my dad..and i need to work becoz i need to learn to leave "me" aside and work on things for my family. There is no time to rest too much or whine too much about things. Things need to be get done. I'll feel better if I do what is right. =D my aunt shared this with me today..i think want to share with you all.. JOY= Jesus, Others & You

Thank God

Thank God for:- 1) blessing me with parents that never had abandoned me. 2) blessing me with a ear to listen and also a mouth to speak. 3) blessing me with eyes to see. how blessed am I to be able to listen when those who can't hear will not be able to enjoy the music and surroundings of God's creation. Those who can't talk, will not be able to sing or speak out using utters. I should be thankful that I'm given blessings like these...I should be content that I'm much better than many. I must not fret. I'm learning and learning hard to be content right now. Thank you God for helping me to see these 3 today. Cassey

Interest in reading

i'm not sure if reading is a remedy for me now. But when i think about reading..the thought of reading is not storybook. It is things that interest me ..is more of culture and christian to do God's will. An example from a aunty in christ in church...she told me that if God made the horse, the horse should not work else thing but instead work what the horse if willed in. So it is important to find out whats God's will for my life right now. I'm dillusion for many years. i do not know what are my talents/ gifts. What i'm really really good at. Pray for me..to be able to find myself in this period of uncertainty. Uncontentment is getting hold of me. I need to get out of disscontentment asap.

These are a few of my favourite things.

When I talk about my favourite things. A few came to mind..but it just reminds me so much of my ex. 1) Bible 2) Sunflower 3) Dandelions 4) Swings 5) Photography (that i use to love and i'm always dealing with it) If only I could recall my 1st love towards the bible. As a kid love the bible, I feel that I want to be as teachable. I lament and lament....this few weeks...I couldn't stand my behavior. But a sister in christ told me that, we'll be worst without the Lord. I think I should think it that way. If not in my mind I'm like...why God, why do I need to go through so many things. Those mistakes I made I guess. I really thought he would be a soulmate. I'm speechless..I'm angry, I'm shameful, I'm prideful. When will I feel the joy once again? A song came into mind today.... Happiness is the Lord and Blessings by Laura Story What if the blessings comes through raindrops, What if the healing comes through tears, What if the thousand sleepless nights what it takes to know you are near what if the greatest disapointment, are the aching of this life is a revealing sense of happiness the world cant satisfy. What if trials of this life, Are your mercies in disguise. The rain, the storm the hardest night. there are many things to lament about...too many things that i just feel very tired. Today I read the scriptures about Choices. Our life is a responses to the choices I have made towards God. My reaction reflects what I believe in Him. I fail you my Father in Heaven, but I also lament, why do i need to wait so long to have answers in life. Is it because I still have many things to learn. Have mercy on this your daughter. Help me to be very transparent here so that my sisters in christ can be able to pray with me. Psalms 121:1-2 I will life up my eyes to the hills- From whence comes my help? My help comes from the Lord, Who made heaven and earth.