These are a few of my favourite things.

When I talk about my favourite things. A few came to mind..but it just reminds me so much of my ex. 1) Bible 2) Sunflower 3) Dandelions 4) Swings 5) Photography (that i use to love and i'm always dealing with it) If only I could recall my 1st love towards the bible. As a kid love the bible, I feel that I want to be as teachable. I lament and lament....this few weeks...I couldn't stand my behavior. But a sister in christ told me that, we'll be worst without the Lord. I think I should think it that way. If not in my mind I'm like...why God, why do I need to go through so many things. Those mistakes I made I guess. I really thought he would be a soulmate. I'm speechless..I'm angry, I'm shameful, I'm prideful. When will I feel the joy once again? A song came into mind today.... Happiness is the Lord and Blessings by Laura Story What if the blessings comes through raindrops, What if the healing comes through tears, What if the thousand sleepless nights what it takes to know you are near what if the greatest disapointment, are the aching of this life is a revealing sense of happiness the world cant satisfy. What if trials of this life, Are your mercies in disguise. The rain, the storm the hardest night. there are many things to lament about...too many things that i just feel very tired. Today I read the scriptures about Choices. Our life is a responses to the choices I have made towards God. My reaction reflects what I believe in Him. I fail you my Father in Heaven, but I also lament, why do i need to wait so long to have answers in life. Is it because I still have many things to learn. Have mercy on this your daughter. Help me to be very transparent here so that my sisters in christ can be able to pray with me. Psalms 121:1-2 I will life up my eyes to the hills- From whence comes my help? My help comes from the Lord, Who made heaven and earth.