Interest in reading

i'm not sure if reading is a remedy for me now. But when i think about reading..the thought of reading is not storybook. It is things that interest me ..is more of culture and christian to do God's will. An example from a aunty in christ in church...she told me that if God made the horse, the horse should not work else thing but instead work what the horse if willed in. So it is important to find out whats God's will for my life right now. I'm dillusion for many years. i do not know what are my talents/ gifts. What i'm really really good at. Pray for me..to be able to find myself in this period of uncertainty. Uncontentment is getting hold of me. I need to get out of disscontentment asap.